Train Up a Child

I'm going to try and "journal" my journey so I can look back a year from now and see where God has taken me in my walk.

This morning the first thing I read before even getting out of bed was Proverbs 22:6 "Train up a child in the way he should go (and in keeping with his individual gift) and when he is old he will not depart from it."

I have failed as a mother the first few years of my son's life.  I didn't show him the way.  I lost focus.  I actually lost faith.  I almost lost it all but my gracious God saved me.  He wrapped His loving arms around me and kept me from being pushed over the edge.  I can remember vividly the night I literally almost lost my mind.  I was low on everything in life.  I was low on faith but I still remembered God's word that said call on His name, and He will save you.  I begged God to please help me and He did.  I sat in my little pregnant chair (my red recliner that I rocked my little boy to sleep in every night) and I stared out my huge window over looking the black night sky.  My life felt and looked like the sky...dark and no light whatsoever.  I was grasping for anything.  I knew I needed a miracle that night and God gave it to me.  He reached His hand down and took me in His arms.  He held me as a father would hold a child.  He showed me what it was like to be held by a King.

I can beat myself up all day long for failing my son but I realize now more than ever...I am his walking Bible.  I am his faith at this point in life.  My actions will speak louder than anything in life right now.  Today, I will train my son in the way he should go.  I pray over him.  I speak life over him.  I speak God's word over him and in Jesus name...my son will know and trust in our powerful and mighty God.  He will be life to this dark world and he will live a full life serving God.

If you have failed or think you have failed as a parent,  start today and strive to live the life God has called us all to live.

We are blessed!