Feet Prints...

I think little feet are the cutest...and love photos of little feet! These are my little boys in the middle and his two friends on each side.

If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking...

Words Can Not Explain My Love For Him

We are His portion and He is our prize. Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
And Heaven meets earth like an unforseen kiss
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

That He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves.

by John Mark McMillan

I can't explain how much I love my little boy. I never knew love could be this deep! Wow...and the above verse states that if grace is an ocean we are all sinking...if you think about the depth and width of the ocean...it's almost never ending it seems. 

That's how much our heavenly father loves us...He gave his only son for us!!

Kendall is my one and only child...I can't fathom giving him up for anything!!!!!

Don't regret the things you have done...accept God's grace and forgiveness...and most of all HIS never ending and unfailing love!

Oh how He loves us!!!

Power of spoken words...

After having a wonderful weekend without yelling or negative words spoken...my devotional tonight happen to be on speaking blessings into your life.

My Positive!!

I can be the world's worst about speaking life...and in the next breath speaking death into someone.  With the love of my life and the father of my little boy being an addict, I have been thru major turmoil.

I have so much bottled up inside because of the hurt I have felt over the past three years.  I want nothing but his soul to be saved...because I know he would touch many lives with the help of God.  But when I remember the ugly things that happened I speak death to him...I can tear him completely apart by my words...right after sending out an uplifting Bible verse...and that's wrong.

We are to speak life...life in our own lives...life in our childrens lives...life in our friends...life in our parents...in our family...in our co-workers! You never know when a kind or uplifting word will restore ones faith!!

Watch your words today...even your thoughts because our thoughts become actions!

Weekend away...date with the most beautiful brown eyed boy...

My friend and I took our boys to Little Rock this weekend and stayed at the Peabody. What an awesome experience. That's all the boys needed...ducks to ride an elevator and walk down the red carpet into the foutain.

My little boy loved the ducks!! We went to the Little Rock Zoo and then we had a date night with our boys.

It was a great weekend enjoying the most important person in my life...Kendall Beck!!

The Peabody

Nostalgia...

Tonight at church our pastor really hit home...he mentioned the word nostalgia...defined as yearning for the past.

Something I catch myself doing often after everything that has happened in my life over the past three/four years.  I had GREAT times...FUN times...times where I stayed out all night doing nothing of importance...but enjoying the one I was with at that particular time. The one that I fell in love with and gave my heart and soul to...there were so many little moments that I wish could happen right now...I long for times of the past...

But our pastor spoke on nostalgia...stating that we can long for the past all we want...but it's not coming back...times change...things change...circumstances change...we change! We can sit around all day longing, wanting and remembering the good ole' days...wishing that we could go back...to that one moment...as we long though...life continues to pass us by...life doesn't ever stop...it doesn't wait for us to get things together...or get things "perfect" it continues to move forward...we miss out on the new moments that we could have looked back and longed for...

It's not bad to remember the good...even the bad of the past...but to dwell and wish things were as they were a year ago...10 years ago...just makes us get stuck in a rut...

Remember the past experiences in life have made us who we are today...we can look back...we can look forward...but let's never forget THE MOMENT...Enjoy the little things in life...reading a goodnight book to your children before bed...getting the opportunity to speak to your parents on a daily basis...cleaning up the little finger prints on the window from your little ones dirty hands...having your little one come up to you during the night because they are scared of the thunder...

Life is a journey...enjoy every moment!

Pressing In...

I know that so many, probably everyone, have come to a point in their life, in their day, etc. when they felt like throwing their hands up and saying "I can't do it."  I don't mean giving up on life...I mean just settling in life to the point where they think this it...this is what my life has become and I will just have to accept it. 

Example...when you wake up in the morning...and nothing seems to go right...nothing bad happens...just every little thing goes wrong...you wake up...get everything together....walk outside to rain...spill your drink on your wardrobe for the day...rush rush rush...get behind every slow person possible on the way to work...get rude customers...everything seems to hit a nerve...your last nerve...or the nerves you have lost!

That was me today...absolutely nothing bad happened...My little boy actually had me laughing before I walked out of the door today...but as soon as I dropped him off I decided that I was going to focus on the rain...the gloom...realizing that I had to walk FOREVER to get to my building...in the rain...in my heels...

It just seemed I was irritated at everything...when nothing was really going wrong. I almost gave up and decided I was just going to declare this a bad day...but I then decided I was going to change things...because your attitude changes all! I decided to be a little nicer....to focus on the good and to press in...when I felt like throwing my hands up and being unproductive for the rest of the day...I pressed in...I asked God to help me as I struggled to focus on the good things of this day...

I imagine that we have all missed out on great things because we just gave up...threw our hands up and decided this is it...it's going to be a bad day...it's going to be a bad month...a bad year...instead of pressing in and trying to turn things around...reaching for more...more of life! Who knows what blessings we may have experienced had we hung in there one more minute...one more hour...one more day...it's those times...when you need to press in even harder...

Life will have its ups and downs...jobs will be good...but jobs can also be stressful...sickness may come...death may come...but God says His Joy comes in the morning...troubles will not last a lifetime...Press in...Focus on what is good! Don't give up!!! Because when we throw in the towel...we miss life! We miss the best!!

We all have something in our life that is a blessing...count your blessings...count your trials...count the good and count the bad...it all makes our life what it is today!!

Enjoy the journey...rest in God's love...